New Thought: Never Gonna Get Easier

While driving to the grocery store the other day, I was feeling sorry for myself because I'm feeling really overloaded and out of control.  And my gut thought is, well, this (ie, life) is hard right now, so I deserve [insert name of unhealthy but tasty food].  Yeah, I don't have time to really exercise right or get enough sleep or decrease my stress...but I deserve a treat right? And I remembered this (found at Baby Weight, My Fat Ass), which I have fallen in love with.

Original source is somewhere on here

Ok, first of all, I haven't yet done anything to deserve a treat - I'm just overscheduled.

And second of all, yeah, I don't need to reward myself with food.  Yes, rewards are lovely - all those people who motivate themselves with manicures or spa days or a new outfit are right, they can help.

And third of all...grow up.  Life is busy and full of things and bad sh!t happens and I might not be able to make a baby and I have an annoying job and I am behind on school work and...so what? That's life.  There's no fairy tale ending where I'm actually pregnant and it turns out I'm being promoted to Vice President of Hanging Out and Blogging at the University and I've also lost 30 lbs and I can magically row a single with great skill and aplomb.  And constantly saying that I'll do the hard work of eating right and exercising and studying and working when "things calm down" is just silly.  I can't be perfect with my food choices or my workouts, but I can do better than just giving up.

So for me this was more of a wake up call to stop acting like a kid.  It's time to be an adult.  I have responsibilities.  And constantly trying to lifehack myself into doing the things that need doing is just ignoring that fact.  I need to grow up and act like a motherf*cking adult (sorry, reference the hellaciously funny Hyperbole and a Half).

I think it might help that this is time limited - if I can get through August, September must be easier.  And if I can work my tail off until Masters Nationals, then I'll have a lot of silence and solitude to recover and read books (audiobooks at least).  But I need to man up and act like an adult.

So I went to the grocery store and bought a ton of "fast" food ideas and frozen meals.  Because, as an adult, I know that I won't be taking the time to cook and clean and take care of myself and if I don't give myself easy options, I will go to Starbucks and Wendy's and Taco Bell and Whataburger everyday.  I would do better with grass fed beef and fruit picked off the tree (or at least picked up at Whole Foods everyday), but it's silly to expect that I'm going to find time for that when my schedule looks like this.

Note the whitespace on Thur evening and Sun evening.  That's for laundry.

Do not be fooled by the whitespace later in the week - that's nationals.

So instead, I've made the adult choice.  You can expect to eventually hear some reviews of the new and different frozen foods I found at the grocery store - Morning Star breakfast biscuits, three different "light" chicken/alfredo/veggies/pasta combos, Lean Pockets with pretzel bread...all on tap for the next week and a half!